A hole that cannot be filled...

I jump around emotionally having great days, followed by depressing days. I love doing the work but then it starts to accumulate and I get burnt out. I'll get really excited about all the good I am doing and enjoying, and then I think about what I don't have, what I miss having. How can I find happiness in living a single life? Am I called to the single life? I don't know what the feeling is (hard to explain) but I know (at least at the current moment) that my life is not being called to serve others as a Roman Catholic Priest. My wants point toward spending the rest of my life with a beautiful gift from God, a woman to hold and share life with. As I move through the days and weeks I see no hint that this will happen anytime soon, if even. I feel the urge to date grow stronger every day, but everywhere I turn I see single life as the open option providing for myself and serving the church.

I enjoy my job, where I am able to provide for myself and serve my Church, furthering the mission of St. Tom's for the Boiler Catholics. But, I do not find happiness in my life at this point. I am missing something, I have a hole that I cannot fill.