Lost in the Darkness, No Shoulder to Cry On

I am really starting to wonder about this online dating stuff. I had been talking to this girl online for about a month and a half. Everything was going smoothly and so I asked her if she would like to meet up for dinner. I felt like this was a logical step and that I wasn't rushing anything too quickly. I was met with this:

"Perhaps, just as friends. When I signed up on CM, I was really hurt from my last relationship and I don't know what exactly I was looking for. Now that I've had some more time to myself, I've realized that time is exactly what I need. I want to be by myself for a while, and fill my life with better people. If you're okay with that, then sure!"

Now correct me if I am wrong but I thought the whole point of being on a dating website was that you were interested in dating. Apparently I am severely mistaken.

I am at a loss for words right now. I have no idea what God wants of me. I've tried being patient I want to give it all to Him but I can't do this much longer. It hurts. I don't feel like I have the shoulder to lean on that I used to have. I have acquaintances at Purdue and St. Tom's, but not really anyone I feel I can bare my soul to.I don't have a best friend anymore...they have all "grown up" gotten married, traveled the world, or joined religious orders. I feel like I have allowed myself to be left behind.

I know the work I am doing is fruitful. I know that I put in a hard days work and others see the good that I do. But I don't know if I get anything out of it. I don't have time for myself, and if I do it is tucked into the 3-4 hour window between getting home from work and going to sleep.

I need a vacation. I want a girlfriend. I need a community that understands me. I want a shoulder to lean on. I need a light in the darkness. I want my faith and prayer life back.