Burnout

I think I have finally reached burnout.

I am working roughly 60 hour weeks, I haven't had a day off in over a year. I am called into work on the weekend...on a regular basis. I complete most of my tasks with 5 minutes to spare because I wait on others who don't turn in their portions of a project until the last possible second. My list of projects grows faster than I can cross items off the list...

When people ask how I am doing, I am quick to answer, "Fine" or "I'm doing ok". I'm not i'm burned out. I enjoy the fast pace of my job and the ability to do something different every day, but it is taxing. Can I keep up with this mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually?

I have lost hope spiritually. I used to be so happy, I was excited to take on new challenges. Now, I don't know my purpose. I was into the whole discernment idea, "you just have to give it time", but I want to live my life. I have made almost no progress...and when I think I am making progress, it blows up in my face.

I wonder if I have found my "security blanket" in this job and that I am afraid to grow up. I thought this was a blessing; a job in a horrible economy, serving my church and giving me time to reflect on life. Well, I'm not so sure any more; and I really don't know what to do.

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