Am I trapped or stubborn?

Am I afraid to grow up? I feel like I am being left behind. My friends have all gotten married or moved on. I am still at college. I want a relationship so bad, but I am cutoff from any chance of one. I am surrounded by beautiful, single, Catholic women...and I can't do anything about it.

Our culture puts marriage and relationships at the center of everything. It is flashed everywhere...it's hard to avoid them. Every time I see them I want a relationship even more.

Am I truly happy where I am...or am I just putting on a mask to pretend. Am I trapped, or just afraid of taking a leap. This probably isn't healthy. I put on a happy face when I go to work...but spend the evening sitting in front of my TV trying to figure out who I am, where I am going, and self-loathing. I need out. I can't take it anymore. I just want to live a normal life. I want to move forward but I don't want to make the effort. I make excuses for why it is impossible for me to move forward. I need someone to talk to, who will actually care enough to make me answer the tough questions and think about my life on a deeper level.