The Pit Inside Me...

I think this last girl I dated really messed me up. I haven't felt the same since we broke up. I was super excited just to get back into dating again after a 3 year gap. I thought it was what I needed to help me fill the gap I feel, it didn't...I feel worse. She lured me in and hung me out to dry. It hurt so much more the second time, and has affected me emotionally.

I feel depressed a lot of the time. It's hard to have the same excitement. Maybe it has just been a long last two weeks but I am almost positive that dating that girl did some sort of damage. It's not that I am swearing off girls...it isn't easy to find a girl...first that I am able to date...and then I have to get her to like me. I sometimes want to take this as a call to the single life...but it doesn't match up. Where is the immense happiness you feel when you find your vocation...it isn't hidden among the despair and depression. It hurts...and I don't know how to make it better. I hide my feelings trying to keep face to minister in my job, but I don't know if I can handle this. What do I do?