Stuck in 1st Gear

I am not sure what it is but I continue to struggle with the age old question in my vocation. "I want a girlfriend but I don't think I have enough time for one, but am I willing to make time or am I just selfish?"

I struggle with not having someone to share my life with...with a lot of my friends getting married I don't even have what resembles a relationship. I understand and realize that not everyone is called to a married vocation...but I also struggle with not having someone there to spend time with. There are plenty of girls who I think would fit the role, but I have either been friend zoned or am looked up to as a big brother not dating material. I also sit in the awkward situation that I am in a campus ministry role and whether or not that is kosher to date...and I probably don't help myself by being known as the awkward guy.

I just want to have another chance at a dating relationship. I have failed in the past but I hope to have learned from those and apply them to the future. I want to move forward...but I feel like I am stuck in this gear for life...