Wednesday, August 31, 2011

At a loss for words

Slight mental exhaustion/breakdown last night. I don't really know where I should be going in life. I know where I am now and that this is where I am supposed to be, for the time being anyway. Can i support myself with this job for the rest of my life? Will i teach someday? Am I called to Campus Ministry? Do I look at Grad schools? What should I be doing to advance my life so that I don't get left behind the times in a job market where jobs are extremely hard to find?

I also find patience harder and harder to come by. I want a relationship. There are three or four girls that I would love to date, but I feel uncomfortable about it given my position. I would love to move forward but it feels like everything is holding me back. Will I find Her? Am I called to marry? Would I better serve God's church in a different vocation?

I know what I want, but I don't know what I want; I ask that God's will be done, but am I ready to accept it?

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