Venting...emotions...

Horrible at keeping this up to date. Hmmmmmm...I really wish I had someone to lean on. Somebody to share my life with mentally, emotionally... I don't really know what I want. Just wish that this was easier...

It sucks that I am now at what should be the most exciting point of my life, but I an not as excited as I feel I should be. I just wish I had someone there beside me. I did but she left when I needed someone to lean on the most.

Sometimes I wonder what could have been, how I might be better off, what I have missed out on, what I might have missed out on, why I feel this way, what I did wrong, what I should have done differently...