"It was all just a Dream..."

I couldn't stop thinking about you last night. You were the main theme in my dreams last night. But was it all just in my head or did God put you there? Last night it seemed like you were interested, but was that what my mind wanted me to think. I got all excited about writing a post this morning, but now I'm not so sure.
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference."

Lost and abandoned...

I feel so alone. I want to share my feelings with someone, but there is no one that I feel comfortable to have that type of conversation with. I look back and realize where I screwed up, I know what I did wrong and I have learned from my mistakes. I want to move forward, but I struggle with how I can do so. I want to see a peace in my life where I have been restless for over a year now.

Why must I struggle here, why must I feel this pain? How can I change my situation and allow my self to find comfort in my life?