Lent...The Absence of Christ

As we prepare for the death and resurrection of our Lord Jesus Christ I ponder Christ's call to his vocation. He was called to the single life, to live as a carpenter and die on a cross. What does God have in mind for me? They say when we make plans for our future God laughs. This time last year I figured I would be teaching and engaged by this point, obviously that didn't happen. What does He will of me?
I feel an emptiness inside one that I feel can only be filled by the love of another, someone to share my life with. The problem is, whenever I feel that I may have found someone to spend that time with my gut says no and holds me back. I struggle to fill the void that is left and to understand why I am where I am. I know that my current job could not support a family but I desire to have my own family...
Christ grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference. This Lenten Season I hope to spend time in prayer and reflection, pondering His will for me. That I may find His Divine Plan and be ready to carry it out, whatever it may be.