The Deafening Silence

My God, My God; Why have you forsaken me?

Patience is a Virtue

One more application, and more waiting. I want to know if I have a teaching job, I want to teach. St. Tom's is great but it doesn't let me share my love of history with my students. Lesson planning may not be the most fun in the world, but it is the means to the end.

My parents would be off my back too. I can't do anything right according to them. It's my fault that I graduated in this economy and haven't found a job yet. I want to be a great teacher, but I need a chance to prove it to others. Lord help me to have PATIENCE, as I hope to do your will. Help me to UNDERSTAND that your will may not be enacted the way I plan, but that it follows a purpose you have laid out for me. Help me Lord to allow you to work through me.

Of the days we spent with you...

The days dwindle down to the end of summer. Many are depressed because the summer is ending. I am too, but not because of the end of summer. This summer has been restful, and I have gotten to see a lot of friends whom I haven't seen in some time, or will not see for a long while. No, it is depressing because as we creep closer and closer to the end of summer, that means one less day to hear back from schools to see if I will be joining students in the classroom this fall. I have found a good job that will pay the bills, and I enjoy it. But it isn't teaching, I have spent the last 5 years learning to do something I have wanted to do for the last 13 years, and now that I can legally teach, no one has a job open for myself and many of my classmates.

This year will bring many changes. Many of my friends have moved on, graduated, found Big Kid jobs. My life has taken several turns this summer. Changes in relationship status, the way my parents view my accomplishments. I as God for guidance, but I do not listen for His answer. Patience is something that I continue to work on, hoping all will come now is one of my weaknesses. I want to see my dreams realized but I need to trust that they will be, in accordance to His plan.

God grant me the SERENITY to accept the things I cannot change, the COURAGE to change the things I can, and the WISDOM to know the difference.

Lord, help me to find your will, your plans for me in career, vocation, and where you feel I will best use the talents you have given me.